THAT happy...

One day after a live video on social media, someone asked me if I was always THAT happy. I told them, no. I thought it was an interesting question. I engaged in a deeper discussion about this inquiry and didn't immediately realize that it would resurface as, 'a thing' - until today. 

Today is August 27, 2021. It's the end of the week and today, I am filled with active joy on the inside. This week has been filled with breakthroughs that I really needed and NOT to share all of my business, but I really needed to forgive, release, reflect, be consistent, celebrate and embrace my truth on a WHOLE 'nother level. Yes, I talk like that sometimes. 

So, back to this, 'thing' resurfacing. I am not always THIS or THAT Happy. There, I said it. Below the surface and within my inner self, I have experienced lingering hurt, pain, rejection, uncertainty and the remnants of unforgiveness towards people. Yet, when it is time for me to be, ON - I have learned to suppress all of those ugly feelings, so that I can complete whatever tasks/assignment that is before me. This is not necessarily a bad thing, but when it becomes a habit that results in unresolved, long term issues - it is bad. 

My goal and life's purpose include a myriad of responsibilities and for this blog, I will focus on my role as an ENCOURAGER (a giver of courage).  This week, God allowed me to be a recipient of what I give to others for the betterment of their lives. He gave me moments, reflections, conversations, revelation and opportunities to share my innermost thoughts and feelings, in exchange for His peace, love, refreshing and beauty. The result on this Friday is my being encapsulated by indescribable and immeasurable JOY. 

I am sharing this because, it can sometimes feel easier to just suppress our feelings and appear THAT happy, while all the time there is an abundance of emotions and unresolved issues swirling within you. It is fine for you to take time for yourself, to pour out unto the Lord what is on your heart. You can lay everything on the table and ask Him to remove or fix the broken pieces. You can be honest about where you are in life and how you feel. You can rest assured that God is concerned about you and that He has placed others around you, who LOVE you, unconditionally - to help you navigate the sometimes rough terrain of life. I know how it feels to hide your feelings inside - but- I want you to know that you do not have to do so. You can release every care and concern unto the Father. YOU can be THAT happy, for real. You can be authentic and show your human side. Like, your fun, silly side. You can love and be loved, again. 

After the rain. After the pain. After the disappointment. Joy, is there and it can be yours. Be real with you, about you. 

Be free. 

~Tanika